We had two wonderful, glorious nights where Landon didn't wake up screaming. It was lovely.
And apparently, Landon thought two nights was more than enough...because last night he woke up not just once, but twice. A rare phenomenon, indeed.
Before you start shaking your head and yelling at the screen, telling me to just deal with it, that it's not unusual, that all babies wake up at the night at some point during "babyhood", I need to explain something: I know.
I know that we are lucky that when he wakes up, he generally only gets us up once at night. I know that there are countless parents out there who would trade places with us in a heartbeat, because their almost-seven-month-old wakes them up three, four, even five times a night. I know his behavior is not abnormal and that every child has his or her times when they just won't sleep.
I know.
See, it's not the waking up in and of itself that's frustrating. It's knowing that he is capable of sleeping through the night, but not being able to determine why some nights are a struggle and some nights pass peaceably by. It's the awareness that physically and emotionally, he is ready to sleep through the night - after all, he's been doing it since he was 4 or 6 weeks old! - but not being able to take away whatever circumstance/situation/factor that is preventing him from sleeping well.
It boils down to the fact that, at the end of the day (or night, I suppose), Brian and I feel helpless that we can't help Landon get back to his previous sleeping habits. I know all first-time parents (and experienced parents, too, I'm sure!) go through periods where they feel incompetent and incapable, but all I want is a happy, healthy baby, and the lack of sleep is preventing him from being the social, content, engaging little boy that he should be. That is where the frustration lies.
As soon as my iPhone emails them to me, I will post some new pictures of Landon. Stay tuned!!
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